My mother’s birthday is next month. For a long time now (I can’t remember how long though), I think of what my being here has done for her. Now, hold on! I’m not being selfish, conceited or anything like that. What I mean is, she sacrificed a lot to allow me to be born. That’s all I’ll say. Because of that, her dreams (that I had found out later on in life) was to be a singer. She has a beautiful voice and I’m not just saying that. Countless people who had heard my mom sing over the years had mentioned it and even on the radio when a song came on that she use to sing. So, again, she gave up that dream and a couple more. Life has not been kind to her and she always worked hard to provide for us.
I think about how much better her life probably would have turned out if I hadn’t been born or lived during childbirth. I think it would have been better. I’m the oldest so I can say this. Everyday I do what I can to show her that I love her (not for giving birth to me because and I hate saying this because I know GOD’s not pleased but it’s still in me to say, I would have preferred to not have been born but GOD didn’t ask me for His permission) for giving up her dreams of a better life. She has told me she loves me and that she hasn’t regretted my birth but I feel as if I owe it to her so every birthday, I do my best to make it a great one. Is it out of guilt? No, it’s out of love for her. I use to think it was but that was a long time ago. Nope, I love her. She’s kind, extremely giving and helpful, loving, smart, GOD-fearing (i.e. respect for Him), etc. I’m glad she’s my mom and I would have no other. So see, this isn’t about me; it’s about her and my thoughts of how to show her she’s loved on her day of birth and through out. It’s just that I go all out on this one. I wish I could do so much more for her but at this present moment, I do what I can with what has been given me. When Jesus blesses me with more, then I’ll shower her with more. She’s such a blessing to me and I love her. Like that old song by “The Intruders” in ‘73 said, “I’ll always love my mama…” Take a listen here. Enjoy! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GjxlguPYo0 or https://youtu.be/3GjxlguPYo0
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